# Failing Spanish

- Link: https://thewrongkindofready.com/failing-spanish/
- Published: 2026-06-22T00:00:01-07:00
- Author: Caleb

In Costa Rica, I’d registered to complete four years of high school-level Spanish
in sixteen weeks. Each year, compressed into less than a month—quizzes, homework,
midterms, finals—repeating on a loop for four months.

That first day, I learned to say my name and age.

The first week, I learned basic conjugations. Their rules. Their exceptions.

On Friday, I made my first set of vocabulary cards.

By Monday’s quiz, I already felt behind.

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It was now the second month of classes.

I stood at the front of the class, my teacher’s kind face looking at me, dark against
the sun in the windows.

“Conjugate tener.”

I did.

“Good. Now—what did you do this weekend?”

I paused. The answer was there somewhere—in rules, in charts, in the margins of 
my notebook—but not in my mouth. I started once, stopped, then tried again with 
something smaller, safer.

She waited.

“I went to the beach,”

I said in Spanish.

It wasn’t true, but it was simple enough to finish.

“Okay…let’s try something different. Do what I tell you.”

She gestured toward the door.

I didn’t move.

The class shifted in their chairs. Someone behind me stood and closed it. I watched,
started to the door myself, then slumped back to my seat.

That afternoon, I found a desk in the library, my flashcards strewn across the table,
as the daily afternoon tropical storms pummeled the library windows.

Claudia pulled up a chair next to me.

“Are you coming?”

I looked up.

“What?”

“When the storms let up, a bunch of us are going to that coffee shop downtown then
maybe play pool. Are you coming?”

I looked at my stack of unfinished homework, the writing assignment I’d hardly started,
and then her smiling face.

“No. I just don’t think I can.”

“Your loss.”

Then she got up and left.

I stayed in the library that evening.

The storms passed, the room emptied, and I struggled through my cards alone.

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